the day SHE WAS

And do you see the way she smiles?
Hiding all the pain underneath.
They’ll regret it one day.
Killing her inside..
Slowly she’s dieing.
Holding on to what little she has.
That’s what’s keeping her alive.
Give her a chance,
To prove that she does belong here.
Everything you say and do…
And she finds a way to still love you.
It’s a wonder why she bothers.
She hates herself because of you.
She loves him because of you.
She hates you .. Because of you.
She act’s like herself because of herself.
Hides everything, everyday. 
Act’s like nothing happens.
One day, You’ll regret this.
Killing her, Oh so slowly inside.

Distance of ME

i lose my self
Hiding from my shadow
Invade by fears
quite far away from my self
Hopeless and nerveless
Fighting & wishing to escape
From the barriers of lie.
i choose to hide and run a million of miles
even though i lose way home,,,
and choose  to entomb...
can't find way out...and be in Me...
every  distance of  Me....
is the nearness with YOU...

failed is a Cuff

Telling you is the only chance for me

to relief of being guilty..
but You're still so blind to me
wishing to be free from sacrifices of hiding in a lie
and on the outside of me....I'm saying:
["I don't regret anything."]
while in the inside I'm screaming:
["I regret everything!"]

i know i will definitely lose you once you've known it

and thinking that Sometimes i have to fight to come to terms with the past. 

And sometimes  bury my regret by promising to change my ways.

but it's hard to do

cause every time i tried 

it keeps on slapping on me that i  failed...

Mistakes Staring Back at me

Don't want to comfort you with the LIE...

but i have to...
Fighting back CONSCIENCE...
Is like torturing my self
Just to make you STAY and be my MAN...

It's hard to deny and forget what i have done

And knowing that i am losing YOU

and there's nothing that i can do to prevent being replaced. 

Forgive me for the words i cannot and did not say....

Can't run away from the truth Nor  forget....
Because.........
Every time I look into your eyes there's nothing there to see
Nothing but my OWN MISTAKES STARING BACK AT ME.... T.T

Who i am??? HATES me who I've been

Take a look behind the make-up and behind the fake smiles,because only then will you see.

Look past the outward appearances and into my heart and you will see the real me. 

Look past the bruises and the scars...and all the things I do.

A lot of  things I lost throughout all these years. 

Take a look inside..take a look and then you will realize...

I'm not the GIRL you think I am, all I hope is that you really give a damn...

is there someone can Take me away from here, 

can take me away so I can tell you my true fears...

Where i can tell about the thoughts in my head, 

and how I no longer feel dead...

I need someone who can take me away and never bring me back...

Can ignore all the qualities,to you,I seem to lack. 

Forget all the bitterness and all the rage, 

Must I remind you that you let me out of this so-called CAGE. 

Try to look past all my insecurities and all my lies, please look away from these unworthy eyes. 

Please leave your comfort zone, for you I'll let the real truth be known. 

Thinking of my future without you leaves me breathless, I get too scared to even speak. but take me away today, bring me back on a better day...