failed is a Cuff

Telling you is the only chance for me

to relief of being guilty..
but You're still so blind to me
wishing to be free from sacrifices of hiding in a lie
and on the outside of me....I'm saying:
["I don't regret anything."]
while in the inside I'm screaming:
["I regret everything!"]

i know i will definitely lose you once you've known it

and thinking that Sometimes i have to fight to come to terms with the past. 

And sometimes  bury my regret by promising to change my ways.

but it's hard to do

cause every time i tried 

it keeps on slapping on me that i  failed...